Hello lovies. Sorry it's been so long. Been uber busy. I'll update later. Here's a little hint into how I'm feeling for now. Expect more dramatic ranting later. Haha. You know you love it.

As usual, Morgan is going to rant soooo....

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Well let's see. I have a 4.0 gpa so far. In English, we've taken three quizzes. I've gotten 110, 95, and 95 on them. Math we took three quizzes. The first two I got 100. The other one we took today and I think I forgot the negative sign. Actually I'm almost positive I did. So I don't know what I'll get on that, but I got a 100 on the homework. Then in my Sign Language class, I got a 100 on the first quiz but I basically bombed the quiz we took the other day. Probably an A or a B but I could've done better.

Now, let's get to the DRAMA in Morgan's life, cuz we all know I gots some. Well let's see. Benji's been ignoring me like I predicted he would. His reason? Shanon, his new "wife", has forbidden him to speak to me. She accused him of cheating on her. He's not fuckin cheating on her. She's got him so wrapped around her finger that his become a pussy whipped little bitch. I even said that to him. I'll get to that in a minute. Rewind first.

The other day, after he's been ignoring me for about 3-4 days, he signs onto AIM and sends me a message. He's just like "hey". I said hi. I asked why he was ignoring me and if Shanon told him not to talk to me and he said yes. I was like you're either my friend or you're not. So are you my friend or are you not? He said he was then signed off. I sent him a text message the next day saying how he was the most ridiculous person I'd ever met and that it was really unbelieveable that he would allow his wife to come between him and his friend. He told me "Shanon is my life. I love her and I don't want to lose her. When are you going to grow up and realize that?" OMFG! Is his ass SERIOUS?! I sent him one back "I need to grow up?! I didn't hang up on you, reject your calls, or ignore your text messages. I have been nothing but a friend to you, Benji and you know that. I think it's really shitty that at a time when I need you most, and I've told you that, that you'd abandon me like this. That's really low." His response? "I don't have time for high school drama. I'm married now. You need to grow up and stop being so childish?" My response: "GO FUCK YOURSELF YOU STUPID SON OF A BITCH! You hung up on ME. Rejected MY phone calls. Ignored MY text messages. I have always been there for you anytime you needed me. You know she'll accuse you of cheating again and that's why you won't talk to me. So grow some fuckin balls and realize that I'm fuckin right. Stop being a pussy whipped little bitch, Benji."

Ah yes. So fun. I love my drama filled life. On a happier note, I've made a lot of new friends at school and there's a REALLY hot guy in my math class. Math used to be my worst subject, but it's always funner [love the grammar, haha] when there's a hot guy to keep you entertained. Teehee. So yes. Basketball game tonight with Rachel. Leanna's house tomorrow. Woo hoo. TTYL loves. Mwah.

<-Yeah. I do.

<-Yeah. That's why.

<-I think that's cool. Haha.

<-Sexy picture.

<-I thought that was sweet.

<-I want her ass. Like bad.

<-That's hot.

<-Unfortunately.

<-Unknown is smart. Haha.

<-That's how I feel about Benji. Dick.

<-FUCK YOU ED! ...I feel better.

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Sorry I don't update that much anymore. I know I used to update like everyday, but having started college, my life is CRAZY hectic. Like ridiculously. Plus there's more drama in my life, as always.

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Let's see. So my ex boyfriend, Ed, as you all know, made out with my bestest friend Cheyenne. But who did I hear it from? Not Cheyenne. Ed. First of all, it should've never happened. Second of all, she shouldn't have suddenly gotten amnesia and "forgotten" she kissed him. Two fuckin weeks later and you don't REMEMBER you kissed him? You don't remember kissing your BEST FRIEND'S ex boyfriend. We had broken up just four days before. That's fucked up.

On a happier note, I pierced my lip and Morgan's got pictures. YAY! I'll post pics of my lip at the end of this entry. You'll know which ones they are.

Well, my ex EX boyfriend, Benji, who I'm still madly in love with and want to be with, is married. He's been married for like almost two months. Well he and his wife, who I hate because she's a bitch and refuses to even get to know me before decided she hates me, had been having problems. He was talking to me about it and he even thought they might get divorced. Like he was REALLY pissed about it. So, as awful as this sounds, I was really really hoping they would, because I love him more than life itself and I really wanna be with him. There's just something about this guy. I love him so much. Well today, they talked and now they're not getting divorced. They're going to "work on it". I'm really heartbroken. I thought he might come back to me and I might have a chance with him again and it's like... now I don't. It sucks.

So, school update. The first day we had a quiz. In math, of all subjects. I got an A. Took another math quiz yesterday. A. English test today. I either got a 90 on it or 110. Either way it's an A. So I'm doin alright. Haha. If I don't update much anymore, that's why. Really, REALLY busy. Sorry if the entry is TOO long. I went a little crazy. Hehe.

<-Gorgeous.

<-I think that's pretty.

<-Who cares how we look? Love is love & I love this pic.

<-Cute couple. I miss that.

<-No they don't. Seriously.

<-Looks like Ed and his ex fuckin slut.

<-Took you long enough to figure it out.

<-She's beautiful.

<-Come home, Brandon. We miss you.

<-I'm not worth Benji's time anymore.

<-I forgive you.

<-Yay for rocker chick panties. Rock on girl.

<-Fuck it if they don't like it.

<-She gots my tummy.

<-I finally pierced mine. Yay.

<-The most beautiful picture ever.

<-Yeah. And it sucks.

Lip piercing pics. Hehe.

<-Can't see it very well in this one I guess.

<-Emoness. I tried. LoL.

Hello dears. Sorry I haven't updated in a little while. Again. I'm becoming a broken record. I might now have to time to do icons or pictures right now, but if I don't I will TRY to do it tonight. I've been uber busy. But, once again, more of Morgan's love saga soooooo...

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Well, like two days before New Year's Eve, I called Ed to talk to him. And he, of course, was being his normal jerk chicken ass of a self. Gah. I hate boys. He was sitting on the other end of the phone, silent, for like fifteen minutes. So I finally just went off. Not like screaming or yelling, but finally just forgot about him reacting, and stop worried about what his response would be and just told him how I felt. About him, about us, about him being a jerk to me was making me feel. And do you know what he did? After being silent the ENTIRE time I was saying all of this, he started LAUGHING and hung up on me. Real mature, I know.

I didn't call or speak to him for two days. But at midnight, New Year's Eve, I left him a comment on Myspace and sent him a text message. It's way too hard not to talk to him. Very frustrating. Now he's decided he wants to get back together with his ex-girlfriend, Ashley, who is a little WHORE with STDs. That's not me being mean. That's common fact. He had to get tested cuz he knew she had them. So yeah. Whatever. He can have her and they be all nasty together.

But on a better note, I'm starting college on Monday. Now y'all get to hear all about my schedule. Lucky y'all.

Monday-Introduction to Algebra (Laugh and I scratch your eyeballs out and force feed them to you. So ha.)
                  Beginning American Sign Language
                  American Government

Tuesday-World Civilizations I
                   English Composition I
                   American Government

Wednesday-Introduction to Algebra
                         Beginning American Sign Language
                         American Government

Thursday-World Civilizations I
                      English Composition I
                      American Government

Friday-Introduction to Algebra

Well that was a mouthful. Haha. I'm going to be doing Journalism as my major. I want to edit fashion magazines, but they don't offer that at this school. Technically I'm not prepared for a four year college so until then I'm just gonna go to our local community college for a year. So yeah. That's my life as of right now.

<-Fuck love.

<-Fuck that shit too. We did that. Broke up a week later. Fuck it.

<-That's really sad.

<-She looks like Benji's wife, Shanon.

<-Most comforting picture.

<-No it won't. Stop lying to yourself.

<-Gorgeous picture.

<-She's beautiful.

<-Cute picture.

<-I truly believe and follow what the 8 ball says.

<-She's beautiful too.

<-Yes, please..

<-She's GORGEOUS. And I love her.

<-Pretty much my life right now.

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I'm going to continue my love story drama. So...

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The first icon I posted is exactly how I feel right now. Two weeks ago today, Ed and I were in the backseat of his car and I gave him my heart. I completely let myself go. All my worries, all my troubles. I let them go. I felt so comfortable and protected in his arms. Two days later, he was weirding out. I don't know what happened. But that night felt so right. So yeah. That's why that icon's there. It's exactly what happened two weeks ago.

This entry is really depressing. I've just been going through a tough time. He's so frustrating. Like he says he wants to be friends, so now I'm trying to go back to the way things were before we were ever together and he's being a jerk about it. Like he'll reject my calls, or just out right ignore me. And I know he's out right ignoring me because I called him last night and he was with Cheyenne and his friends and she told me that he KNEW i called and had no intention of calling me back. Um yeah okay. Dick face much? Yeah. A lot.

I'm trying so hard to just be a friend to him. If he doesn't wanna be with me, FINE! Then fuckin don't. But don't be a dickhead about it. I'm sick of wasting my tears on someone who treats me like shit. All he wants is sex. He told Cheyenne he wants to fuck her. I told her as soon as he does he'll be done with her. She said she'd rather have me as a friend then him as a fuck buddy. So that means a lot to me. I've grown a lot closer to Cheyenne the past few days. We have a lot in common. I love her very much and I'm glad I have her in my life. If she were to ever do anything with him, I could PROBABLY look past it, but it would hurt me really bad.

I guess the main reason I'm having such a hard time getting over this is because he's being a jerk about it. If he could just go back to being my friend, then everything would be cool. Most of my friends are guys. I know how to be "the friend" you know? But for whatever reason, he feels the need to act like this. His ex gf posted a comment on his myspace saying that I need to be "punched in the cunt". Um yeah. Who says that? This girl knows NOTHING about me, but apparently he told her that I call him "nonstop" which first of all, isn't even true, and second of all, why in the HELL is he going around telling his EX GIRLFRIEND stuff about me? I was under the impression they didn't even talk anymore. Gah. I hate boys. I hope they all get their eyeballs scratched out and force fed to them.

Okay I'm done complaining. For now. Haha. Here's the update loves. Enjoy.

<-My life in a nutshell right now.

<-Know that feeling.

<-I'm cutting again. This is a comforting picture.

<-I hope it gets turned around.

<-That's a really selfish, shitty thing to do.

<-He used to do that all the time.

<-I'm in love with this picture.

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